Dark nights of the Soul.

Can we love the stars enough to endure the night? What a question to ponder. We know Abraham looked up to see his descendants as many as the stars. By one seed Isaac-which means laughter, a nation was born. I don’t know about you all, but the thought of night takes my breath away, literally. Its beauty and hidden light for those brave enough to endure it. We’re told that beauty equals pain, and to be honest, I agree. True beauty is a rare gem, not of this world but another.

I’ve spent many nights sitting in the dark depths of my soul pondering and searching for anything that hinders me—asking my Father to pull out His magnifying glass to show my blind eyes what I fail to see. There is gold in the shrouds of darkness if we are willing to dig and dig deep. The light came from the darkness. We all have hidden sparks of light weaved into our very essence. What we choose to do with them, well, that’s the million-dollar question.

By now, you may be wondering what darkness brings light? Well, the dark night of the soul. Through our crushing’s, we get oil. Through pruning, we bear good fruit. Through pressure, we become that diamond hidden under the coal. That’s right, count it pure joy, my friends! All those agonizing nights, painful moments, and fiery ordeals now serve a purpose when we surrender to the King of Kings. Like Sarah, if we are willing to have the faith and give Him our shame, bondage, and guilt. Well, He does something beautiful. We trade our ashes for fertile soil. We grow into strong wings that soar to the highest heights. We receive different facets of his love, like a well-polished diamond! Oh, beloved, what does our Father want to give us in exchange for some things?

“To console the mourners in Zion—to give them a crown of beauty for ashes, the oil of joy for mourning, and a garment of praise for a spirit of despair. So they will be called oaks of righteousness, the planting of the LORD, that He may be glorified.” ~Isaiah 61:3~

But can we endure the night to love the stars? Yeshua, our Messiah, paved the way, Yah’s way to do so. Throughout His ministry, we see every step He takes for those stars, every ounce of rejection, every bit of mockery, all of the crushing’s, all from the stars themselves. These stars are not just those descended from Abraham’s bloodline, but those grafted in the other sheepfold.

Going back to Sarah, I’ve been thinking about Sara and how hard it must have been for her every time she was intimate with Abraham, how many times she hoped for a change in her womb to take place. I understand why Sarah laughed when she heard that she would conceive; she had hoped for so long that her heart had grown sick. What did Sarah, the princess of many, understand about this? That desire fulfilled is a tree of life! (Proverbs 13:12) We can be barren in many ways, yet laughter (Isaac) can burst forth from the barren places if we let our Elohim’s infinite light shine in our dark spots. He supports those who fall and brings His healing balm to cover the battle wounds of barrenness.

~The LORD upholds all those who fall and lifts up all who are bowed down. Psalm 145:14~

Ministry is life. It is life, and those who drink its cup exchange their life for the life of others.

And whoever does not take his cross and follow me is not worthy of me. Matthew 10:38~

To take up our cross means we will eventually reach a destination that calls us to get on it. Tear the veil of our eyes Father! Dark nights of the soul are meant to birth resurrection-a renewing of the self. Good fruit.

The proper definition for a minister is- “an agent acting for a superior, one who acts upon the authority of another,” taken from https://www.etymonline.com/word/minister

We see many called ministers, but how do we know the ones honestly acting upon the Superior Agent?

“I appeal to you, therefore, brothers, by the mercies of God, to present your bodies as a living sacrifice, holy and acceptable to God, which is your spiritual worship. Do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewal of your mind, that by testing you may discern what is the will of God, what is good and acceptable and perfect.” Romans 12:1-2~

We know them by the aromatic perfume from their living sacrifice! Fruit from the womb-birthing pains my friends.

But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, forbearance, kindness, goodness, faithfulness,gentleness, and self-control. Against such things there is no law.Those who belong to Christ Jesus have crucified the flesh with its passions and desires.Since we live by the Spirit, let us keep in step with the Spirit.Let us not become conceited, provoking, and envying each other.” Galatians 5:22-26~

Magnifying glass, anyone?

I leave you with a verse and a beautiful art piece that spoke to me. I pray it, ministers, to you as well. Arise princess from the darkness; you will birth marvelous light!

“By faith, even Sarah herself received ability to conceive when she was barren and past the age, since she considered the One who had made the promise to be faithful. So from one—and him as good as dead—were fathered offspring as numerous as the stars of heaven, and as uncountable as the sand on the seashore”. ~Hebrews 11:11-12~

Published by Its All Tov

Hey, I'm Crystal. I love to dig deeper into Scripture and find hidden gems. I like to read a lot, write and create beautiful wall art. I'm a homeschooling Mother of six. Happily married to my life long best friend. Robert and I reside in New Mexico with our children. I have a desire to align my song with my Elohim's tune. A true INFJ. My heart belongs to the widows and orphans, the fatherless and those diamonds in the rough.

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