I decided to make some roast with mashed potatoes and a side of broccoli for Shabbat dinner. As I’m cooking, my oldest son and I discussed a compelling testimony a friend of mine shared. We discussed the widows and orphans and how we must humble ourselves. My son says to me, “I have a heavy crown”- I paused for a brief moment and envisioned a young man bowed down. I begin to tell him, yes, the weight of Adonai will humble us. I knew my son understood; his path will not be easy; oh, but it will be beautiful! Such wisdom from someone so young. Reminded me of King David. Hard words to speak to my son, and honestly, my throat felt choked up saying them. I held back my tears, because I knew very well the crown is heavy. I wonder if Adonai feels the same way? After our conversation, I continued to think about the weightier matters of the heart:
“Woe to you, [self-righteous] scribes and Pharisees, hypocrites! For you give a tenth (tithe) of your mint and dill and cumin [focusing on minor matters], and have neglected the weightier [more important moral and spiritual] provisions of the Law: justice and mercy and faithfulness; but these are the [primary] things you ought to have done without neglecting the others.” Matthew 23:23
I pictured Abraham and Sarah, Leah and Rachel; you know all those in Scripture with heavy crowns. Wondering if they even knew they had a crown? The weight of Elohim’s glory is so crushingly heavy that we must prostrate ourselves before Him in awe and humility. Yeshua wore the heaviest crown-a man of sorrows. Our necks bow under pressure, our knees hit the floor for lack of strength and all we can do is raise our arms to the heavens before we completely collapse on our faces. Prostrated like a baby who isn’t coordinated enough to walk. This is where we find chutzpah-like faith. Prayer is powerful! But before the boldness must come the humility. May we learn to become one with the floor.
A pure gold crown is heavy, and a head full of hot air will not withstand such splendor. Job knows this, and he has a few words to share with us.
If I go east, he is not there,
and if I go west, I cannot perceive him.
When he is at work to the north, I cannot see him;
when he turns south, I cannot find him.
Yet he knows the way I have taken;
when he has tested me, I will emerge as pure gold.
My feet have followed in his tracks;
I have kept to his way and not turned aside.
I have not departed from the commands from his lips;
I have treasured the words from his mouth
more than my daily food. Job 23:8-12
Come out as gold friends! Stick to His path even when we don’t understand; stay the course.
Our head is the leader of our bodies, and if we don’t submit to the weight that humbles us, we can’t learn from the fiery ordeals we go through; may our trials train us. Our necks keep our head stable, and without the humility of bowing, the neck becomes stiff. Remember the stubborn, stiff-necked Israelites. Pride and ego will always be our downfall if we don’t learn to bow in reverence to our Elohim. Bow the head, the neck, and body will follow. Elijah knew the weight of his crown; it kept him on his face before Adonai. Esther’s crown had her fasting and in prayer. Ruth was found on the threshing floor before Boaz-which means “in strength.” Wait, Ruth found strength while being prostrated on the threshing floor. Why don’t we hear this message coming from the pulpit? Oh, but Yeshua’s crown made his forehead bleed. Fore- means to be in front of and the head is the leadership of the body. Our Messiah went before us as our leader to show us how to bear the cost of this crown we are called to wear. Can the cross and the crown be the same thing? Much to ponder here. Yeshua was in a garden called Gethsemane, and he was in deep prayer, a prayer so powerful I don’t think our ears could comprehend, groaning’s in the spirit. He was showing us the way to life is through death, cross, and crown guys. I often ponder the complete, submissive humility at that moment. On His face, shedding blood and tears for us and drinking from a cup that had His name on it because of our iniquities. My heart is pierced! This picture of servitude makes every silly offense we endure look like child’s play. We must descend on our faces, weeping and seeking humility before our Elohim. His Son has done much for us, something no one could ever do again. Who are we to think we can ascend without descending, is that not the path Yeshua has shown us? Pride goes before the fall, and as we are falling, may it be in repentance. May we find humility and love like Yeshua’s, may no man perish be written upon our hearts. May our lips speak only of His goodness, and our hands only do His works. Only after the moments of humbling can we honestly wear the crown. Not pompous palace brats, but humbled servants.
“Blessed is a man who perseveres under trial; for once he has been approved, he will receive the crown of life which the Lord has promised to those who love Him.” James 1:12
Now it came about after these things, that God tested Abraham, and said to him, “Abraham!” And he said, “Here I am.” Genesis 22:1
“He will sit as a smelter and purifier of silver, and He will purify the sons of Levi and refine them like gold and silver, so that they may present to the Lord offerings in righteousness.” Malachi 3:3
In my next blog, I will be sharing more on the Garden of Gethsemane and how Yeshua paints a picture for all of us to see.